10 years too long
Hiding, searching
Desperately
The last one, the last one
Still it creeps in every time
10 years too long
Concealed, after all
Mind and heart at war
Conscience and feelings in conflict
Feeble beings fickle decisions
10 years too long
Pleading, crying
Push the restart button
Start afresh, this time
Entangled in a perpetual cycle
10 years too long
Slow dancing with the devil
Enticed with its promises
Giving in to his gentle whispers
I felt comfort and security
Where none could offer
10 years too long
Only to realise then
All is but absurdity
A false reality, an ecstasy
Rebelling against the King that formed me
10 years too long
To be living this way
Come now, in bented knees
Crying, may God have mercy on me
Occasional Musings 